about today...

1:41am.
i am bored.
i lied anyway.
1:42am.

lets see...no one is online. no one in the world is awake. no one.
zaq called me and i lost the call. wait that was like 3 hours ago. lets find out how long ago it was...
it was 11:02pm. am i good or what? almost 3 hours.
what have i done in the past 3 hours?

i have played FIFA07.
i have listened to Death Cab For Cutie's "Narrow Stairs."
i have listened to Radiohead's "In Rainbows."
Twice.
i have listened to Thrice's "Alchemy Index: Vol. 1 - Fire."
thats where i am now. soon it's gonna be Vol. 2 - Water.

i'll tell you what i WANT to be doing:
Finish reading Franz Kafka's "The Trial."
Paint.
Draw.
Paint. and im not talking houses.

the fact of the matter is...reading negates me from listening to music...i try not to not listen to music. ever.
and painting requires money to purchase materials, which i do not have either of.
and drawing requires effort to go get things. i guess i could draw on this post-it in front of me. thatd be cool.

oh! memo to self. why am i making memos to myself when theres a stack of post-its in front of me, slightly to the left? scratch the memo, i am gonna make a real life one.
my pencil is out of lead. does anyone have a pencil i could borrow?
THE GREASE PENCIL I FOUND AT CHURCH. hold on...
...brilliant.

Draft autosaved at 1:50am.

that means i have been writing meaninglessly and aimlessly for 9 minutes.
sometimes, however, the best things come when you least expect it. so maybe something good will come from this. but i dont feel in that mood. perhaps another excuse that i am not trying to be creative. i just dont feel creative right now.

that happens often in this house though. not feeling creative that is. i dont know why school is a more creative environment. maybe its the solitude. serenity. to an extent. i dont know.

Now Listening: Thrice - Alchemy Index: Vol. 2 - Water.
Digital Sea.
I absolutely LOVE. this song. and the video for this song. and the album this song is in. the band that sings this song.
In my opinion, this album is centuries ahead of Fire. i love Fire, don't get me wrong, but Water just absolutely blows it away, artistically.
This album paints a picture for me. it's beyond words and notes. other albums have this effect, sure...but this one is up there as one of the best.
maybe its the similar fascination i have with water as a metaphor.
whatever it is, it works.
Open Water. if there is any song i enjoy more than Digital Sea, it is Open Water.

i've wasted enough of your time.

V

ps. if you ever see me type just a plain "V", it most likely means peace. ;)
(peace symbol, get it? no? whatever...)